Update and More Waiting!

Well, as promised, when I had some answers I would let you all know! After much prayer, thought and talking with various people in the "adoption world" (pediatricians who specialize in adoption, my social worker and the International program director for my agency) I have decided to WAIT a little bit longer! My agency is trying to work some things out with the Peruvian government to help expedite the process and to also get more children into loving homes. PLEASE PRAY for this meeting over the next several weeks. The meeting is hoped to happen for about 3-4 weeks from now. PLEASE pray that the Lord will cause the Peruvian government to find favor with our agency and above all for the many children who need a loving home! For right now, I have taken some steps on both paths that I mentioned in the last blog post, but what seems best to me right now is to WAIT! (Can you believe that, I am WILLING to WAIT!-- NOT like me at ALL!-- Must be GOD!) But, I think it best to wait until after our agency's meeting to see before I go any farther down either of the paths. Again, PLEASE just PRAY, PRAY, PRAY that God's will be done and that the Peruvian Government will find favor with my agency! Blessings to all of you, and THANK YOU for the prayers!! I probably won't have much to update until after our agency's meeting in Peru.... but I PROMISE, I will keep you all posted!

"Therefore the Lord is waiting to show you mercy, and is rising up to show you compassion, for the Lord is a just God. Happy are all who wait patiently for Him." -Isaiah 30:18

Prayers & Thanks

Hello All! Thank you for your woverwhelming offering of prayers for me this week. I have certainly felt them and needed them! There have been some adoption news this week. I stil can not go into a lot of detail, but I have been considering a particular child and also considering changing countries. Both of these are two completely seperate roads and I hae to decide which is the best road for me and above all for this sweet little girl! I am still looking at both roads, trying to determine which is the path that God would have me to take! It has been a very difficult week, but God has been so faithful through it all! Please continue to pray that God will show me the path that He would have me take, b/c this is entirely in His hands! Additionally, my eyes have been opened even more this week for the children around the world who are in orphanages. I firmly believe God has a home for each one of those sweet children, please pray that they find their forever families soon!Thank you for your prayers and I will update again when I have more information on which path I choose. In the meantime, please just pray, pray, pray! Blessings!!

Just an Update!

Hello All!
I am sorry I haven't updated everyone in a while, but unfortunately there hasn't been anything to update. I am still waiting for a matach. This part of the process has officially been the hardest part! There were other parts that I thought were hard, but they were nothing compared to the WAITING!!! I am not good at waiting, and unfortunately I am learning a lot about it! I know everything is in His Hands and His timing, please just pray that God will find favor and cause all that needs to happen to happen soon! I had planned on being gone and back home by now and using this summer time to spend with my new little one, but God's timing and my timing have NEVER been the same! So, I am using the time to work on her room and getting things ready for next school year.
Here are some things to be praying for and I will update again as soon as I know soemthing more!
1. Please pray for God's speed in bringing my sweet little girl home.
2. Please pray for all those involved in making decisions for me. Pray that God
will give them all wisdom, strength, and discernment.
3. Please pray for God's will and timing, even though I would like for it to be
NOW!!

Mother's Day

Well, I have to confess, I had really hoped that I would have my sweet little girl by now and that this would be my first Mother's Day..... but that wasn't in God's plan for today. I thought about being sad, and I was a little, but I decided that I can be sad and feel sorry for myself or I could spend this day praying for my little one and that God will make me the best Mom I can be for her!

I have had such a wonderful blessing in my precious Mother, that I pray I can be half the Mother that she has been for me! She sacrificed MUCH to make my brother and I the best we could be and give us what we needed! Thanks Mom for all of the life lessons you have taught me, I hope to be half the Mom you are!

For my sweet little one, who isn't here just yet, I pray that I am the best Mom I can be for you! I know I am not the one who brought you into this world, but I pray that you will always know that God has a purpose for your life and for coming to be my sweet little girl! I promise to love you, cherish you, and dedicate you to God for his putposes for your life! Jesus loves you so much more than you will ever know, and I pray that I will be able to show you, in some small way, just how much He loves you and cares for you!

Blessings to all of the wonderful Mothers in this world, may God give you the strength, courage and hope you need for each day!

More Waiting

Well, if you read the post just before this one, you will see that I said I wasn't good at waiting and that I was probably in for the long haul! Well, and I am NOT JOKING when I say this, the VERY NEXT DAY, I got an e-mail from my social worker updating all those in the Peru adoption process of some changes. Well, unfortunately, I am in for a longer wait... just as I had put in my blog! Isn't it funny how God prepares our thoughts and hearts for the tough news?!? The extra time is on our Government's side.... which is REALLY frustrating! Now when all is said and done and I have my little girl, I now have to wait 2-3 months before I can travel to go get her, this has to do with our immigration laws. Everything else, the entire process, I can honestly say is done for the best interest of my child... but having to wait 2-3 months while I know she is mine and she knows she has a Mommy coming to get her.... that I am just not sure is in the best interest of my child! It is frustrating and has lengthened my time frame quite a bit, so there is no knowing when I might travel. It could be the end of the summer or it could be this time next year... I'll just have to wait on God and TRUST HIM! I am reminded of a song that says "When you can't see His hand, TRUST His heart.." and of the one thing I know for sure, my little girl is His heart and He will protect her, provide for her and love her, and always has, always will!

Please continue to pray, pray for God's timing and for His peace in the waiting!

The Waiting Room

Well, I am still waiting! I suppose in the grand scheme of things it really hasn't been that long... but it already seems like an eternity! I was talking with a friend the other day who, along with her husband, are just beginning their adoption journey..... she called my current situation "The Waiting Room"..... and while I have said all along that there is a labor process whether you have your child born from your tummy or born from your heart. Well, this is the part of the "labor process" I thought would be ok, but you know, everytime the phone rings, I jump up and get it, I look for an e-mail EVERY day, at least 10 times a day!! Why is waiting so hard? Not sure about that, but I can say I have NEVER been good at waiting, which means, I might be in for the "longhaul"! :-) Just kidding, God is good ALL the TIME!And, I know that he has this perfect timing in his hands!
I will say, I have made the wait a little better, by SHOPPING! :-) I have picked out her bed, it is on order. I am re-finishing a chest of drawers for her room, (a project being temporarily put on hold for sinus surgery.... PLEASE don't tell the Dr. that I was sanding furniture 3 days before sinus surgery!!) And, then, I have hit some really great consignment sales..... so getting ready certainly has helped!
Thank you for your continued prayers! Please pray for the following:
1. Please pray for God's perfect timing (even IF it isn't my own!)
2. Please pray for the social workers and Peruvian Government officials who are matching my child and me.
3. Please pray for resliency for my little girl, pray for her sweet spirit and that God will continue to prepare our hearts for one another, so that when we meet attachment will be a smooth transition for her!
4. Please pray for strength for me as I travel though this journey of waiting... Unconditional Faith..... I am learning a lot!
5. And, if you have a minute, please pray for my sinus surgery! :-)

Blessings,
Becca

What's In a Name?

So, while I am waiting on a referral, which prayerfully will come REALLY soon, it might be a little while. One of the questions that so many want an answer to, is what will you name your little girl? Well, actually, there has been a lot of thought put into that has gone into her name, but then there came the confirmation from God!

Well, as you can see from the page, I have chosen the name Liliana. Her other name will be the one(s) that she already has. It will be the only thing that she will have that is completely her own! So, we'll see what her complete name will be in a while, when she is chosen!

But, Liliana, let me tell you about that! First of all, I have always wanted to name her after my Grandmother's middle name which is Lillie. My Mom's and my middle names are both Ann, and I wanted to keep some of that as well. But, I wanted part of her name to be Anna after the prophetess in the Bible. She lived her whole life waiting for the Savior to be born, and after so many years of waiting, when Mary and Joseph brought baby Jesus to be dedicated, God made sure,, Anna was the first one to see Jesus! Additionally, I wanted to keep her name in a Spanish form, one that would also be recognized in her own culture. Sooooo... the name "Liliana" was born! Then one day, I was at the bookstore and looking at a baby name book and decided to look up the name Liliana, I found that it meant...."Belonging to God", what a confirmation that was for me! She does belong to God, while He is trusting me with her care and teaching her in the love and admonition of the Lord, she belongs to Him! Who knew that so much could go into a name!?!? Can you imagine what God put into Jesus' name? I do think of that from time to time... it fascinates me!

So, as we wait to find out what the rest of her name will be, please continue to pray, thank you for all of those prayers!!